Void

Nothing that could be something
That isn’t or is…
And never will be
Pushed away too hard
Some heroic sense of duty

Six down and
Wide-angle turns
No pain
No joy
Just being…

Looking for a tear
Or some sense of feeling
Numb from fingers to toes
I’m paralyzed

Thought I saw a glint of light
But I’m locked up tight
The key is gone
I’m sinking
In this quagmire
Betrayed by my own struggling limbs

One feeling collided with the next
It all happened too fast
Now both are gone
No pain
No joy

The unreal was better than
This nothing
The fading was better than
This void


~Jennifer Rapier-Milne